emotion overload

been glancin at newspaper articles and reports that dictate the beheading of the american civilian by islamic terrorists and i'll tell you.. nothin releases reality upon you than seeing it with your own two eyes. Blame me for wanting to dispell it from the horrors of my mind.. i refuse to recall his name.. or identify with the pain and agony his family weeps through. I refuse to comprehend the circumstances that led him to his apalling demise, i refuse to acknowledge this as a retaliation to what is yet the result of another action. a ripple effect that seeks no conclusion.. no fin.. that instead of a cause naturally running its steam till a witherin end.. it returns each time with vengence greater than the last. each solution forcing yet another heart wrenchin consequence.. i am but human.. and i know a death of one is the end of a human life that can never be returned. be it a societally religiously morally conjured.. death is death.. and no amounts of rights or wrong can ever justify it. I feel that pain.

i felt the dinner i had 6 hours ago slowly resurface to choke me. fillin a spot in my throat that left me feelin numb all over. light-headedness flooded me as the video unveiled itself before my very eyes. shivers down the back of my spine, dwellin here in its aftermath. The terror as they.. i'm sorry.. i cant put to words the distraught struggle i witnessed.. of them provin their point with effect to outrageously stripping him of every human right, and his harrowing sentence in their hands.

i refused to except how it real this calamity was.. and till a certain extend.. stil i find solace in blockin it from my mind. the horror.

http://www.inhonor.net/videos/_66500_american_beheading.htm