old friends

have you ever felt nostalgic about the past? missed an old friend that you no longer keep in touch with because you guys fell out.. an old friend that was like your closest friend.. the one you shared all your dark secrets with, the first person you told when you lost your virginity.. your secret escapades.. the untold dreams.. the multiple crushes in school.. the kind of close friend that you would hang out with everyday.. spend every hour and every second with.. share your last dollars so that you could both buy an Oreo cheesecake that you both would share.. write letters to each other.. even though you meet before, during and after school..

everyday

and even years after the friendship's blown over.. you get days when you look back and miss the friend.. you miss the times..

you miss the person.. and the friend that she was

and even though life goes on.. you just miss it.. and somehow.. because time has moved on.. because you both have moved on to bigger and better things.. met bigger and better people.. even if you meet again.. what is it worth.. for the gap of those few years has already taken its toll on the friendship..

so its lost. the friendship is gone. it no longer is. the memories are what is left.

the friendship just no longer is

dedicated to an old old old friend
that not longer is